sooo last year

so...
i lasted more than a whole year without being ill!

but have just had a bout of flu - it came on tuesday night, i first defensed first thing thursday morning, spent thursday night through saturday lunchtime in bed - but am up and around now...

a year ago this would have layed me out for weeks, but now it's just days.

i think i am finally better!!!!!

fish my wish

so i went to go stay with fishie at the weekend.
as brixxolfest was a bit very boring with its silent disco we went off to the hatchet - this really old pub that was full of yummy rock and rollers, but it was full full full so we decided to leave. i spotted the yummiest of the rock and roll boys across the room - totally my type - looks just like the scandotoy but dresses like my old old pikey boy ex.

i could not believe it when he stopped me on my way out and told me how lovely my tattoos were - so we got talking, and talking, and talking, and talking, then i went off to the loo and we still kept talking - good sign as he coulda made his exit then...then back to fishie's place for a nightcap as it turns out he lives round the corner from him! fishie's place wasn't rocking as much as her and i would have liked so we walked him home.

and i stayed!
it was lovely, all night hugs and cuddles and more, then more in the morning, and the next night he dropped by and stayed. big big love to the fishwhisker for letting me kick her out of her bed for the night, that is true friendship. and now i'm sitting here in london one total smitten kitten as he's coming to visit me for a long long lovely weekend on thursday night.

wow, its happened so soon and i'm trying not to freak out or jinx it so am trying to relax into it and just enjoy it - but it's so damn hard after being so hurt. fingers crossed this one doesn't rip my heart out and stamp on it.

past is present

luckily everyone else was too busy or sick or whatever to see me last night, because i'd forgot i said that i'd meet up with the punkrock ex loverboy as he was in town getting his eyes tested. so we met up in the ship (yes fishwhiskers and foodlebug know it well - where we went for pirate night!) and hung out catching up properly about how just when you think life is sorted and settled it all goes shit again...

...and of course we talked about hepc too as he's finally getting round to dealing with it after 25 years. i guess i'm kinda like is mentor or sponsor or something as i'm the only person he knows that has has it and has been through treatment, so yea we talked long and hard about it and i told him the 2 main things he needs to find out first and now - well next week when he goes to the hospital. i've told him to find out his genotype and get a sonogram of his liver - both asap.

he's going to whipp's cross hospital - does anyone have any experience there?
THANKS IN ADVANCE!!!

monday morning back in bed

...but this time because of snow!
and london just seems to be closed.

i must have got the last train back into london from fishie's last night as the fatman i was spposed to have a meeting with this evening is still stuck in yorkshire. got back to a very very very pretty snow covered london - quieter streets than usual and the usual road construction around here meant alot of the sidestreets were untouched...but also meant no buses, and with the victoria line on usual weekend lockdown there was no chance of a nice reunion with the lovely fiance...so my daughter and i had a lovely bottle of wine and got a bit tipsey then joined some strangers on the street for a midnight snowman building competition (photos to follow)

so i'm double prozac'd and in bed working...

...might finally see the fiance if the snow resides and the one tube line that is running still holds!

now is wish i'd just stayed in bristol with fishie though.
miss taking the isis dog for walks - today would be brilliant in this weather!

monday monday

still feeling really really tired and achey, but oki.
worked a bit from home today then had lunch up on the roof...well okay not really lunch, more painkillers washed down with a 0.0% cobra beer. but still yummy and refreshing. the only thing that really sounds good is sorbet and i've none in the house so had to make do!

and have a day booked off work tomro - am planning on going to a gig tomoro night and do not want to be too wiped or stuck at work too late to make it. murder by death are one of my favourite bands ever, and i've not seen them since they were here at the beginning of last year. i don't know how to describe them - but their recordings don't do their live performances justice at all.

also as i have the day off i really really want to see the crocheted coral reef at the hayward.
i cant believe that it closes at 18:00 most nights - how are very many pe0ople going to get to see it? seems a bit shortsighted to me, but crafty things seem to always be sidelined....too womens institute for the wider public i guess...

i'm soo old skool. lol.

been very quiet and wiped...

think i over did it sitting around chatting at deedee's BBQ the other night, but it was so worth it to see everyone...

spent yesterdy dazed and achey - not felt like that at work for months and months
(sort of since the beginning)

...then last night i practically fell asleep sitting at the bar of my local.

again. worth it.

champagne payday ...i sooo wish!

ugh. fiance not feeling well so stayed at his own house last night.
so i thought i'd surprise him this evening and go round and take care of him.
packed some stuff and remembered to take my keys.

then i remembered.

i can't be around sickos right now as i have no immunity at all.
ugh. i just wanted to cry!
i can't wait til i have my life back...

so to make myself feel better i forced myself to eat thai green curry for lunch.
yum. full belly. boo. uncomfortable.

and my tits still hurt!

humpday. not literally. yet....*wink*

so still struggling with everything...
monday night's aches and pains were so bad that i could even watch tv or play on my cute little pink nintendo ds...so the fiance decided to re-enact the old english soap opera brookside for me using sock puppets in my dimly lit bedroom. i was pissing my self with laughter so bad that jimmy corkhill and sinbad were socks that i finally had to have him stop!

now to cheer me up he keeps taking off his socks at work and mms'ing me new puppets he's making...yes this is a man that is head of production of one of the biggest digital agencies, lol...but i love him because he's no more mature than a 12 year old geeky skater boy....but a 12 year old geeky skater boy with a HUGE salary....

...the fiance has told me to just fuck work if it's too much for me and he'll support me.
i hate to rely on someone that much but i know that if i don't start to feel better and less fed up soon that i'll have to do something as can't jeopardise being long term clear because i'm not allowing my body what it needs to heal.

and still constantly feeling like crying.
i know i've done the right think reducing the anti-d's and my friskiness has quadrupled and my hair trigger *sparkle* gun is coming back...so to me it's worth it. can't have a lovely fiance around 24/7 and not enjoy the indulgence!

especially as we are talking more about wedding plans and maybe still doing it in italy...but with some sort of party in england for the non-nomadic nomads of course...and how cool would it be to get tenacious D to play!!! we already know the raging horns will!!!

aw...hope you are all having a good day.

if its tuesday it must not be belgium. darn.

yesterday was bad.

it was the first time i woke up sooo sick in the middle of the night that i thought 'there is no way i am going to make it to work today'...
i layed in b3d for hours just feeling feverish and pukey and achey,
but in the end i forced meself to get up out of bed and go in.

then i sat at my desk all day trying not to puke in my bin.
my lovely colleagues kept asking me if i needed to be there (answer yes) and telling me i looked ghostly white (i am sure that i did as i felt it)

i am at week 8
its when i heard it gets bad

and to stop feeling so spaced i'm only taking half an anti-d on work nights...