remember remember the ills of november

just had a lovely long luxurious day with the fish sister!
o how i love my fishwhiskers and she is looking hot hot hot.

i on the other hand am looking not not not.
even she noticed my weight gain...

so tomoro is back on it properly.
i saw a beautiful woman walking down the street tonight when we were on our way home from bristol and i realied that if i really tried hard hard hard that i too could look like that again!

its now been almost a year since any major infections and almost a year since i broke vegan, so i'm hoping that my immune system is up to a routine of:

morning yoga
apple juice with powdered greens and psyllium husks
breakfast of organic yogurt and fruit with seeds (altho may remind me too much of treatie!)
green tea all morn
healthy lunch
early dinner
gym on mon/thur/sat
tribal fusion belly dance on wed
no carbs after 18:00 by order of my amaxing trainer ivo badrov
cut down or out on the alcohol...
practise tribal belly isolations every night

blowing raspberries

drinking a lovely vegan raspberry cider and not having to feel guilty.

altho the way things are with me and the fiance right now sometimes i wish i was still sick and dying via liver explosion. ugh.

i really hate that i should be happy and celebrating but instead just worse depressed and anxious as when i was on tx...

monday - back in bed...

so i did spend most of yesterday asleep, although i did manage to also help my daughter take out her lovely bright tangerine hair extensions (i'm sooo thinking of doing a vivienne westwood myself! what do you all think? ) and crochet some sushi - yes sushi! well, at least it is vegan, lol...ugh, speaking of vegan, i'm still having such food problems...i think now my taste is coming back a bit that everything just tastes too strong - so struggling with all my latest 'safe' vegan foods...like the cheap organic humus.

and its not the only difference i'm starting to notice.
today i did my holy monday trinity of doctor/chemist/postbox...
and even though i felt horrible and chesty coughy and feverish, i wasn't as weak and heavy in the legs or as slow moving as i have been. no spring in my step yet - but not quite winter any more either...if that makes any sense?

just wish i had my girls humbleheart and fishwhiskers here closer by so we could all start to feel better together...geography sucks sometimes.

inbox of doom...

so yesterday i finally felt up to looking at my personal emails.
there was one for me from my dad titled 'gluten free ideas' that went on to tell my one of my mom's best friends had just passed away...then further down the inbox i opened an inbox titled chris gaffney benefit to find out that the hacienda brother had passed away from liver cancer...as you can imagine this hit me really really hard with the whole hepC liver thing.

i should never read private emails at work!

especially as i'm having the period from hell today and shouldn't even be getting them considering i'm on depo provera...ugh. i'm sure its side effects from all the meds that i'm on.

but now i'm double pukey and have to go out with work tonight because they especially chose a chinese place with lovely vegan options for me.

and wardrobe completely malfunctioning today.

i've bled through my faded black jeans, the weather has changed and its thunder/lightning/hail and i'm wearing little audrey hepburn flats and have no scarf or umbrella!

of course i am at oxford circus but was very uninspired by today's lunchtime shop.
caroline where are you when i need you!!! lol...