fish my wish

so i went to go stay with fishie at the weekend.
as brixxolfest was a bit very boring with its silent disco we went off to the hatchet - this really old pub that was full of yummy rock and rollers, but it was full full full so we decided to leave. i spotted the yummiest of the rock and roll boys across the room - totally my type - looks just like the scandotoy but dresses like my old old pikey boy ex.

i could not believe it when he stopped me on my way out and told me how lovely my tattoos were - so we got talking, and talking, and talking, and talking, then i went off to the loo and we still kept talking - good sign as he coulda made his exit then...then back to fishie's place for a nightcap as it turns out he lives round the corner from him! fishie's place wasn't rocking as much as her and i would have liked so we walked him home.

and i stayed!
it was lovely, all night hugs and cuddles and more, then more in the morning, and the next night he dropped by and stayed. big big love to the fishwhisker for letting me kick her out of her bed for the night, that is true friendship. and now i'm sitting here in london one total smitten kitten as he's coming to visit me for a long long lovely weekend on thursday night.

wow, its happened so soon and i'm trying not to freak out or jinx it so am trying to relax into it and just enjoy it - but it's so damn hard after being so hurt. fingers crossed this one doesn't rip my heart out and stamp on it.

krishna krishna hare hare

i really really really overdid it yesterday but it was worth it...
went to the hare krishna festival of giant chariots in trafalgar square. it was so good to be surrounded by such positivity and love and belief and smiles!
just want i needed.

made some new friends and ran into some old friends.
they gave me a beautiful sari to wear and a nice sparkling bhindi for my forehead - i forgot how much i love wearing bhindis and it made me feel so old that i dont get as adventurous as i used to with my clothes anymore.

maybe its the tits that just seem to grow and grow - they are hard to accomodate!
but i'm looking forward to being the older woman that doesn't give a flying fuck about fashion.
and i do have to say...that if i was to ever adhere 100% fully to a religion again - it would be krishna, just for the fashion - and the love. i had a smile on my face from ear to ear all day!

easy like sunday mourning...

i am so wiped out today, but it was so worth it!
sitting here post-romp having vegan chocolate booja booja froxen stuff for breakfast with my 3rd big mug of earl grey washing down the heavy painkillers...which aren't making a dent in the migraine that is travelling down my back.
still. the fucking may have worn me out but soooo nice.
i LOVE my fiance SO much.

and yesterday spent the day with his family so that is why i'm more under the weather than usual for a treatment sunday...started out at the very very american psycho designery restaraunt down on regents street, then hopped in a cab to sit outside cafe kick on exmouth market while the boys played baby foot. it was a lovely chilled relaxed eurotrash day surrounded by family and old friends drinking fresh squeezed orange juice in what little sun there was.

paying the price today though.
n way was i going to get my ass up to camden for sunday lunch.
anyway, my option rocks!

home in bed still, and not for fun either!

still not better and really missing the LOVE...
cuddles are lovely but damn i want to feel good enough to have a massively hot and heavy one on one session with my fiance!!!!
it's our anniversary week dammit!!!!

off to the hospital today and hoping they can pour some concrete into my belly to stop this.

you'd think with as much codeine as i've been taking i'd not have this problemo...

and i must really be sick as i only managed to crochet 5 octopussies yesterday and half a squid!
(photo when it has eyes)

seis de mayo

tuesday after bank holiday monday and i' exhausted. as usual.
just went and saw derren brown's latest show in the west end, wasn't as impressed as i usually am with him - but then maybe both of us are having an off night> it's not like i dont love him anymore, but still not as much as stephen fry!

work was busy busy today but good news is my junior started!
it will be nice to have someone to share the load so i can shorten my hours even more and not have to work late as often, which should make tx even easier for me - compared to others i dont think i'm having THAT bad of a time, but then it's all relative isn't it? work.sleep only is a HUGE downshift for me, i miss being out every night and working 24/7.

one extra reason 'm so tired today is had a geeky girlie stitch and bitch yesterday and after about 3 hours of sitting and crocheting and stitching and talking i really just needed a nap.
at least i know my bitch limit now!

and i crocheted a day of the dead skull as it was cinco de mayo!