when???

so when does it get better?

hospital say none of my aches or pains are leftovers from tx.

does that mean it is all menopause related then...

taking sage does seem to help!

whatever is wrong with me, sage is a miracle drug.

he's tuff...

a few weeks in and my ex is doing really well with tx - lets hope he's an early responder! he's got the usual aches, but is finding walking helps...

strange thing is he's going to the hospital every week for his jab - he's not doing the himself. i've not heard of this before?

back...sick again...

so i have had a little tiny bump for ages - right on my ribcage where my bra rubs and the lady doctor always told me it was nothing to worry about...well, nothing until this weekend when it quadrupled in size and started hurting...

hurting so bad that i'm going to have to take painkillers to go to lectures tonight because i can't miss because my tutor is giving me feedback on my first draft of my first ever academic paper - so far over email she says tis very very good!

but anyway - went to the doctor this morning...and she says she's worried about all the infections i tend to keep getting...this is my third bad infection this year already and winter hasn't even hit. so still 14 months after tx and my body is shot.

i've just started training hard and am on a tight calorie controlled diet - i'm wondering if this has anything to do with it? especially the training...am back at the hospital in december so will talk to them more about it then.

right now i just need to lie down with hot compresses to try and draw this out...ugh!

back

back to the hospital on wednesday...
and am so worn out it's probably a good thing!
i've got horrid mouth ulcers again and anytime i get a spot it turns into a weeping pus sore. lovely - just what i need now i'm a single woman again.

another countdown.

i am fake bake sprayed, freshly pinkly pedicured and my bag is packed with lots of little clothes - like my sexy 40's style black one piece swimsuit, as well as some crochet to while away the hours on the beach...now just off to my hospital appointment then i can really truly start this vacation!

phew. i really need this.

the end is nigh....

yesterday hospital was good and picked up my last pack of stuff to get me through the end of treatment...but just the getting there, waiting, and getting home meant that i was way too wiped out to really enjoy seeing the fiance...which sucked as i had sooo been looking forward to it - this is the first time i've just been too damn tired!

stil really wiped out today and feeling weird - scared i picked up extra germs yesterday, but powered through the day anyway and went for a lovely thai dinner tonight. now on the sofa eating dark chocolate with ginger...

yummy yummy

home in bed still, and not for fun either!

still not better and really missing the LOVE...
cuddles are lovely but damn i want to feel good enough to have a massively hot and heavy one on one session with my fiance!!!!
it's our anniversary week dammit!!!!

off to the hospital today and hoping they can pour some concrete into my belly to stop this.

you'd think with as much codeine as i've been taking i'd not have this problemo...

and i must really be sick as i only managed to crochet 5 octopussies yesterday and half a squid!
(photo when it has eyes)

eat to the beat

my local grocery store sells no alcohol wine and beer that doesn't look too bad (so not kaliber)
now i just need to remember if it's the no alcoh0l white or red that tastes horrid!
i've had it before at friends' houses so maybe i'll facebook them to ask...
and the beer that they have is either their own label german stuff or the cobra 0.0%
which i can't wait to try!!!!

i had the san miguel 0.0% when i was in las palmas last summer.
that was the week before what shoulda been my diagnosis - my last big blow out vacation.
but of course i came back for nothing as the hospital left my blood tests had to be redone as they'd not been processed in time! ugh...

as soon as my tummy is feeling better/more used to the drugs i will definitely have some beer!
i'm finding that anything i consume after about 4pm just doesnt settle well, and with having to take the night pills with food i'm finding it quite a struggle! i'm not used to breakfast either...but tonight managed again to make a slight dent in the leftover brinjal curry from the lovely keralian restaraunt around the corner.

talked to the nurse at the hospital about it today, how i'm finding it hard to eat when i'm supposed to rather than when i want to (which used to be always - i should be treating this whole thing as a weight loss regime and i'd probably not be complaining - not that i really am). the nurse explained that food needs to be seen as fuel now...hmmm

but besides that the only other thing that has bothered me in my first week of treatment is a very very very inflamed and sory - even pink - lymph gland on the same side as i did my shot last wednesdy. i just need to keep an eye on it...and just when i'm feeling more myself again - its time to do another injection!

am moving it to thursday tho so i'm wiped over the weekend when i have a bit more downtime - so it also means i get to have an afternoon out at a gallery with work colleagues tomro...and lucky us - they've givn us leap day off free!!!

and o dear i think i'm giving my age away with the title of this post!!! lol...