sooo last year

so...
i lasted more than a whole year without being ill!

but have just had a bout of flu - it came on tuesday night, i first defensed first thing thursday morning, spent thursday night through saturday lunchtime in bed - but am up and around now...

a year ago this would have layed me out for weeks, but now it's just days.

i think i am finally better!!!!!

good vibrations!

yes my wrist is finally getting sore from all the crochet, lol!
which probably stops me being online so much - but i'll have a lovely warm blanket to show for it, so please excuse me for blogging less for a few months while i make something snuggly for winter! i'm quite excited as it is made of different coloured blocks, each with a skull design on it. soo sweet...and warm.

warmth is important.

especially as every night around 10pm i seem to get the worst bone chill ever. i'm still feverish - but finally felt good enough for gym again tonight after a month off.

it was a nice gently cardio and powerplate workout - so let's hope it works to lift my mood because i really can't fathom upping the anti-d's . it makes it tooo hard to cum! and with such a lovely fiance around i NEED to sparkle!!!

altho i do have to admit that now i understand all the advice i had from others that are on tx and anti-d's to get friendly with my vibrator...i'd never had one before but yes, now couldn't live without one.

there must be some correlation between the number of anti-d prescriptions written and the number of vibrators sold, lol!!!

lucky i just got a special discount card for harmony!
but for some reason they think i work at spearmint rhino.

actually - i must finally be starting to detox as i've noticed i'm being chattedup alot more again.

i still don't like mondays

still not over last week's crash yet...woke up again burning with fever and chills and aching evrywhere - even my breasts, and i know i've not done anything to warrant that as just been too. damn. ill. this treatment weekend. emotionally i'm still completely wiped, really ca't face work tomoro and am being a bitch to the fiance. o dear. i can't wait til this treatment no longer controls my life...

...especially today while i'm home ill and wiped out and there are free tickets to the metal hammer awards and boat party sitting on the living room table. i want to cry. so many of my homeboys like slayer and incubus are in town and there is no way that i'm up for socialisin' today. ugh! and as my daughter just said - no teetotalers allowed on this cruise - double ugh!

i want my life back.

i now know what sick is...

i knew treatment weekend was goin to be bad as i'e been so exhausted this week...

but damn.
this is the sickest i have been since i came back from barbados and had to detox off crack.
i. am. ill.

i've not been able to hold anyting down and even drinking green tea or water makes me double over with stomach cramps so bad that i almost shit myself hourly. it's gross!

sucks is that yesterday started out as oki as saturday mrnning usually does - i know i have a set few hours usually before the tx kicks in...so got up early and went to the gym, didnt do a complete workout but the stuff i did i tried to do to the max. it was good and i din't feel any worse for it...so when i started getting tummy twinges i thought it was from the abs workout.

then it got worse.
now i've puked so much that it feels like my lungs hurt.
i've managed to have a banana soy yogurt smoothy with my meds and have sent the fiance and daughter to fresh and wild to get me some spiru-tein powder to add to tonight's banana mush...

and i'm to the point that i'm almost breaking vegan.
i want chocolate ice cream sooo bad but fucking planet organice had none in stock yesterday.
fingers crossed weare able to score from fresh and wild today.
otherwise i might fuckit and have some chunkky fuckin' monkey...

ugh.

i think what brought it on was i had humus with pine nuts after the gym.
whole pine nuts always make me ill - something about the skin or something?
so i tried to avoid them but obviously didn't.

the sickness hit me while i was in the bath.
leant over trying to use my new girlie shaver to smooth my bits out nicely.
i hate the spidery look!

so i have nice smooth as a baby's bottom girlie bits again.
just too bad my ass is exploding with shit...as i'd love some anal!

off to barf more.
which with a mouth full of ulcers is NOT fun.