i now know what sick is...

i knew treatment weekend was goin to be bad as i'e been so exhausted this week...

but damn.
this is the sickest i have been since i came back from barbados and had to detox off crack.
i. am. ill.

i've not been able to hold anyting down and even drinking green tea or water makes me double over with stomach cramps so bad that i almost shit myself hourly. it's gross!

sucks is that yesterday started out as oki as saturday mrnning usually does - i know i have a set few hours usually before the tx kicks in...so got up early and went to the gym, didnt do a complete workout but the stuff i did i tried to do to the max. it was good and i din't feel any worse for it...so when i started getting tummy twinges i thought it was from the abs workout.

then it got worse.
now i've puked so much that it feels like my lungs hurt.
i've managed to have a banana soy yogurt smoothy with my meds and have sent the fiance and daughter to fresh and wild to get me some spiru-tein powder to add to tonight's banana mush...

and i'm to the point that i'm almost breaking vegan.
i want chocolate ice cream sooo bad but fucking planet organice had none in stock yesterday.
fingers crossed weare able to score from fresh and wild today.
otherwise i might fuckit and have some chunkky fuckin' monkey...

ugh.

i think what brought it on was i had humus with pine nuts after the gym.
whole pine nuts always make me ill - something about the skin or something?
so i tried to avoid them but obviously didn't.

the sickness hit me while i was in the bath.
leant over trying to use my new girlie shaver to smooth my bits out nicely.
i hate the spidery look!

so i have nice smooth as a baby's bottom girlie bits again.
just too bad my ass is exploding with shit...as i'd love some anal!

off to barf more.
which with a mouth full of ulcers is NOT fun.

monday ugh

ugh...wokeup thought i was up to trying to get my hair re-touched today...my ashy hair is peaking out from under the brown i overdyed my high lights so it's actually making me look like i've lost even more hair than i actually have...so i phoned up aveda and luckily there was a cancellation today and i can try and get a massage afterwards!

but now i've had a bath, my fever is way back up and the painkillers aren't breaking it. all i want to do is stay in bed now but i look like shit and need to sort my hair out - i know i will feel better once i get up and walk around the corner and get pampered a bit...after all it is doctor's orders! they made me promise not to just work work work and home home home. to do something nice for myself...and i guess i can combine my daily walk with it.

ddnt manage to see my chemo friend at the weekend but will call him tonight and try and again soon when we are both up to it...like herding cats this gathering of the sick, lol!