sooo last year

so...
i lasted more than a whole year without being ill!

but have just had a bout of flu - it came on tuesday night, i first defensed first thing thursday morning, spent thursday night through saturday lunchtime in bed - but am up and around now...

a year ago this would have layed me out for weeks, but now it's just days.

i think i am finally better!!!!!

words to live by

i now have an infected cyst that is 6cm x 5cm on my ribcage where my bra rubs. it's the most painful thing ever! am taking so many pain meds but they seem to wear off hours before i should take me anymore...altho i am reminded of the 'pain specialist' nurse at the hospital i had my breast lift at - she told me - " if you are in pain and waking, you can take more"....words to definitely live by.

but the fever is so high and the immune system so low that i worry and feel like i should be halfway coherent to know how bad it is - if that makes any sense? once the blondeboy gets here tomoro, i can relax as there will be someone to take care of me...

my daughter is here but i don't want to worry her too much as she's got lots of shows booked this week. she has just started singing, did her first gig last saturday and already did tv last night! i'm even more proud of her than i ever was before...

and i didnt think that was possible.

more past coming back to haunt me?

been thinking alot about my past being a hairdresser and other stuff these days...

as you all know, on saturday i went with the fiance to get his nipples pierced.

it's a studio i have known for decades and trust. and i was very impressed by own of their health and safety instructionals on the wall. it was regarding needlesticks and how to deal with them.

made me start thinking about my training as a cosmetologist back home in so cal in 1984.

of course we were taught how to keep everything clean clean super clean and sterilised, etc...but we never even talked about cross contamination regarding blood. now i know things are different and friends who are studying now even wear gloves for waxing.

just makes me think. that is all.

tiger lilies

am so wiped out today but haven't done a thing since saturday.
have tried to sleep all day and just can't - just lie there bored but too exhausted to do anything.

we have tickets for a cabaret tonight and i have no idea how i'm going to get through it.
red. bull. that will be the only way!

i would normally really be looking forward to a punk night out but i'm just not up for it tonight.
can't let me daughter down though.

at least i won't be expected to go for a drink aftrerwards!