monday monday

still feeling really really tired and achey, but oki.
worked a bit from home today then had lunch up on the roof...well okay not really lunch, more painkillers washed down with a 0.0% cobra beer. but still yummy and refreshing. the only thing that really sounds good is sorbet and i've none in the house so had to make do!

and have a day booked off work tomro - am planning on going to a gig tomoro night and do not want to be too wiped or stuck at work too late to make it. murder by death are one of my favourite bands ever, and i've not seen them since they were here at the beginning of last year. i don't know how to describe them - but their recordings don't do their live performances justice at all.

also as i have the day off i really really want to see the crocheted coral reef at the hayward.
i cant believe that it closes at 18:00 most nights - how are very many pe0ople going to get to see it? seems a bit shortsighted to me, but crafty things seem to always be sidelined....too womens institute for the wider public i guess...

i'm soo old skool. lol.

the end is nigh....

yesterday hospital was good and picked up my last pack of stuff to get me through the end of treatment...but just the getting there, waiting, and getting home meant that i was way too wiped out to really enjoy seeing the fiance...which sucked as i had sooo been looking forward to it - this is the first time i've just been too damn tired!

stil really wiped out today and feeling weird - scared i picked up extra germs yesterday, but powered through the day anyway and went for a lovely thai dinner tonight. now on the sofa eating dark chocolate with ginger...

yummy yummy

tiger lilies

am so wiped out today but haven't done a thing since saturday.
have tried to sleep all day and just can't - just lie there bored but too exhausted to do anything.

we have tickets for a cabaret tonight and i have no idea how i'm going to get through it.
red. bull. that will be the only way!

i would normally really be looking forward to a punk night out but i'm just not up for it tonight.
can't let me daughter down though.

at least i won't be expected to go for a drink aftrerwards!

note to self number 1

not the same weekend...

i'm not feeling as bad as i usually do.

but it is kinda my fault, ugh!

i misfired my injection last night somehow.
not sure how it happened and will all my tattoo/piercing/sewing experience how could i fuck this up? double ugh!

anyway, was really struggling to get all the air bubbles out of the syringe
finally did it without losing too much of the serum inside
then as i was injecting i realised my stomach was REALLY bleeding like everywhere and bright orange again

all i could think of was something about mary!
WE GOTTA BLEEDER
(then i watched the vampire episode of csi...but that's a whole nother thread)

then realised that somehow the serum was leaking from the join between the needle and the syringe...so tried to push it in, finished my shot, then when i released the damn needle stayed in my stomach and the syringe came away in my hand.

so i reckon i only got part of my dose.

have txt'd the hep nurse to ask if i should re-dose
i feel bad getting in touch with her at the weekend but i don't know who else to ask...
even if she waits to monday to get back in touch at least i've had something!

...so even though last night was lovely it was also a disaster.

finally met up with other heppers!
but i was soo late as got stuck at work til like 20:00
and i'm supposed to be reducing my hours...ugh.
but i made it.

by the time i got home tho i was almost passing out from exhaustion

note to self:
probably not the best idea to have a silly fuck fest on a friday morning when already tired from a week of working...but still - so hard to resist!

did mean i already started the day wiped tho.

anyway.
it was lovely to makie face to face contact with others.
even tho i know ppl who have had it like my x punkerboy and another mom at the school, its lovely spending time in a group. and i learned that i'm not the only one that gets the bloat from the meds.

i'm sure i was promised this as a weight loss regime!