blah.

just blah.

there is a big long weekend looming and i'm not well enough to fly my tired ass anywhere sunny.
so i'm just blah.

london might be a bit nice tomro and monday - just maybe though.

another monday...

same same. tired and funny belly...but only a couple weeks left then i can start to detox!
have booked the week after my last shot off work and want to go away and chill somewhere...maybe naples for the end of the week...a niiiice long weekend in the sun with the fiance's family sounds sooo good right now. its also the same week as the surf festival in cornwall too - but with the english weather this summer i don't want to count on it.

hmmm...decisions decisions.

fried egg

o i do love the fried egg crochet pattern i found online...
might even try to motivate myself over this treatment weekend (have now definitely lost track of how many more or where i am at and don't really care - just know it is soon!) to get to john lewis and get some yarn - as i have the house to myself again this weekend and already am finding it horrible and lonely!

the fiance is still confined to walthamstow where he lives with his throat infection, and the flatmate is off following some punker band around france. my daughter's foot is finally better so she is up and around and running her bar/burlesque venue in soho all weekend...and since tx started i've only had 3 other grown up visitors.

guess i am typhoid cherry.

ooo why didn't i name my blog that! that sounds good. damn.

i do have to say that this last week with the fiance busy and sick has made me understand what it must be like for others that don't have a partner around to support them alot. i'm finding it hard and lonely even when he is here alot of the time - so this weekend is going to be very very very strange.

and the only person i thought to call has flu too!

ugh.

why can't the weather be better so at least i could sunbathe.
there is a BIG midsummer event in hyde park tomoro that i'd love to go to but really don't want to go alone. i'm not good at doing things alone and really admire women that are...so crochet time it will be...with whatever gym i am up to doing.

*sigh* *whinge* *ugh*

back @ work...

after what felt like a long long weekend with the frolics and paying for it afterwards.
am feeling quite good so far today tho!

let's hope i can make it to the gym tonight...

x

note to self number 1

not the same weekend...

i'm not feeling as bad as i usually do.

but it is kinda my fault, ugh!

i misfired my injection last night somehow.
not sure how it happened and will all my tattoo/piercing/sewing experience how could i fuck this up? double ugh!

anyway, was really struggling to get all the air bubbles out of the syringe
finally did it without losing too much of the serum inside
then as i was injecting i realised my stomach was REALLY bleeding like everywhere and bright orange again

all i could think of was something about mary!
WE GOTTA BLEEDER
(then i watched the vampire episode of csi...but that's a whole nother thread)

then realised that somehow the serum was leaking from the join between the needle and the syringe...so tried to push it in, finished my shot, then when i released the damn needle stayed in my stomach and the syringe came away in my hand.

so i reckon i only got part of my dose.

have txt'd the hep nurse to ask if i should re-dose
i feel bad getting in touch with her at the weekend but i don't know who else to ask...
even if she waits to monday to get back in touch at least i've had something!

...so even though last night was lovely it was also a disaster.

finally met up with other heppers!
but i was soo late as got stuck at work til like 20:00
and i'm supposed to be reducing my hours...ugh.
but i made it.

by the time i got home tho i was almost passing out from exhaustion

note to self:
probably not the best idea to have a silly fuck fest on a friday morning when already tired from a week of working...but still - so hard to resist!

did mean i already started the day wiped tho.

anyway.
it was lovely to makie face to face contact with others.
even tho i know ppl who have had it like my x punkerboy and another mom at the school, its lovely spending time in a group. and i learned that i'm not the only one that gets the bloat from the meds.

i'm sure i was promised this as a weight loss regime!

today is a good day to...

i've actually had a good day today - moodwise, overall feeling not too bad except for headachey-wise, and i launched a new site today that totally fucking rocks!

i know it sounds weird but the only thing that i did differently is sipped strawberry flavourd soy milk when i felt a bit hungry/dizzy rather than just drink water all day - maybe this helped!

so i'm off to look at the spa list for our weekend away.
need to pickout everything i want to do before i crash tonight...

...uh - oh i have the sniffles!

ugh.