its working.

i really really love my GP.
went to see her this evening to get my monthly blood pressure checkup and she took about 45 mins chatting with me about all aspects of my health, and is really interested in how the diet is working for me. as well as the paperwork, she weighed me but i don't want to pay it much mind as the scales may not be calibrated the same as the ones at my group...but she also measured my waist AND I'VE LOST 6 INCHES OFF MY WAIST IN LESS THAN A MONTH woooohoooo.

ass chat - literally (sorry)

i'm not actually sure if anyone even reads this blog at all...guess i could look on my analytics, but then it might completely put me off if there is no one out there. and i'm finding blogging again quite helpful in organising my thoughts around weight loss and health. so if you are out therem i'm sorry i've not been posting the last couple weeks but i've been away gyspy dancing in brighton and also squeezing in as many other dance workshops as possible...

...thinkin' that this would help me lose weight.
and it did week 2: lost 5lbs then week 3 sucked with only 1 pound lost. even after working my ass off literally to the point of exhaustion. which i'm now thinking and hearing may have been the reason why my loss was so little. so this weekend i've taken it a bit easier, and ensured that i've rested.

another reason i think i may have not lost much?
i was literally full of shit! even adding as much fiber as i could to my lighter life food packs, i was still tightly packed, then i swear i pooed out at least 2lbs of crap the next morning. i wish i could have demanded a recount for the week! so this week i'm also eating dulco-lax like sweeties to try and shift my weight that way as well as burn it.

ugh...wish me luck.

trying.

so i've been trying to do this new 'routine' for eating/health and failing miserabley!

the only thing i'm managing to keep up with is the juice potion every morning, but trying to eat three meals a day, at the same time everyday, just is not happening at all. i get up too late and not hungry at all so breakfast around eight doesn't work, lunch i can do, but dinner before seven no way as i'm barely leaving work then!

ugh...and still not managing sleep at all.

i'm trying, but this 'routine' is trying as well.

i think it must be great if you are some buddhist giving bum washes for a living but am a bellydancing punker that works in digital advertising!

sorry for the cross post!

i've also not been round very much, so huge apologies from me.
am working more hours than ever.

still with my lovely blondeboy that i met almost a year ago while visiting fishwhiskers!

FINALLY had my fibroscan this last week.
it was absolutely horrid.
got sent to the royal free in london for it and the woman scanning me made feel absolutely horrid about my weight - she actually jiggled my tummy and told me she doubted she could get a reading with all my padding. i almost burst into tears! but instead turned it into anger and told her if i'd got the test over a year ago when i was still sick i'd have been alot thinner.

she then chastised me again for wasting my healthy liver by gaining weight and turning it all fatty.

i don't know what to do - this is about the 5th health care professional that has told me i need to lose weight, but none of them have offered the slightest bit of help to do it...so took matters into my own hands today and used the last £80 i had to my name and went and got a colonic irrigation - thinking of it as a big 'reset' of my system. the woman performing the colonic is an x nurse and was wonderful - explained to me that if my liver is not working well then the best diet and exercise in whole world will not help me lose weight.

so...she suggested and apple juice liver cleanse - has anyone else done one?