her time now

this week has been a really really hard week and i'm feeling more and more lonely than ever,
got home from the hospital on wednesday to find my daughter here, very upset and it's not got any better. i'm afraid she is going through some sort of breakdown and i really have no idea how to deal with it and please if anyone out there has any advice send me a comment. basically she is low. it seems like depression as she is sleeping all the time...i just wish i was in a stronger place to be of more help to her.

amaxingly the x-fiance has been lovely altho i don't want to hear what he has to say. he thinks she might need residential care and i refuse to do it as they are horrid places. still, besides my new flatmate who is my old friend from dublin and my daughter's friend's family, i feel i really have no one. i've txted my family to ask for them to at least get in touch with her so she feels she has support, but nothing. i miss church. this is when i really need the support of others and there is nothing here in london for me.

i've thought about flying us both back home just so we aren't so alone, but not sure that is the answer either...it's just so hard. whenever i'm in a different room to her i just break down into tears myself. i want my engagement back, i want to be settled down, i don't want to be alone.

perfect ten

shot number 10 done...

completely changed my routine and it went well - best its gone since i was away at easter and in the hotel.

got home early from work meetings, so warmed my shot up between my tits for 15 minutes while i finished up work calls and txts and stuff. then went in the bathroom - we changed the bulb up to 100watt this week so no more mood lighting but means i don't have to flick the air bubbles out in the kitchen with a whole office block across the street watching.

i think the air bubbles disappear easier the warmer the shot is...

so did it. no problems. whoo hoo.

then finished up work.

the daughter is on her way over to steal some more eyelashes off me for her show tonight.
flatmate also has a show, so will have the place to myself - which rarely happenz! alien vs predator is on film four, and i might relax my friday night banning of the fiance and let him round later on.

now need to take some painkillers.

just wish i had enough energy to heat up some soup...
my legs are soooo tired from going to the soulwax launch thingy last night at the south bank.
it was my firzt proper night out and about since starting tx and i did really well!