blood blood gimme blood

fishie reminded me that i need to get my bloods done...
work has been madness lately, so much so that i've hardly had time to eat (making up for it by beer in the eve) and the anxiety of losing my job now i'm alone is pushing me into overworking even when i'm exhausted, so i've not taken the time to go to the hospitl and wait - i hate that i can't make an appointment to have it done!

so next week before i head off on my scandoland adventures i have to get lots of tests.
escpecially will be interesting to find out my hormone levels...i'm needing them alot lately! which is what i just keep trying to focus on getting away rather than all my internal wobbles at the moment. i still can't believe that everything got so messed up. i miss my best friend - feeling so hollow without him...

i wish i could be stronger!