the festive sneezin'

i've just taken my first over the counter medicine (except painkillers) since finding out that i had hepC. i'm off to southend today to meet up for lunch with the girlies i was in africa with and have been up sneezing my nose off since 7am. yuck. i'm like a little snot factory...so finally caved in and took some day nurse. i remember before tx the doc at the hospital told me that night nurse was okay when i couldn't sleep so this should be alright, and as i'm washing it down with green tea and jasmine i should be speedy gonzalez in half an hour!

much like i felt at the beginning of the week...tuesday i had so much energy that i was starting to feel like my old self - but by thursday it had already faded and then yesterday i was stuck in bed til around 4pm...too fatigued to get up and do anything

(okay so it may have been the two mad kinky sex sessions, but hey usually that gives me energy!)

(and yes pixie i used LOTS of lube...)

so let's hope that the good energetic days are more and more. especially as i've got a busy month ahead of me! i've finally been able to sort some time off work to go home at xmas...it was stressful but it finally happened after lots of tears and spreadsheets.

my friend/director finally figured they could get some cover so i could see my family. so i texted me daughter i've got tickets to come home and her reply was that she had flights for london! so she comes here then goes back and 2 days later i follow her...

then xmas with the family, then see lik bro and his kid from the 27th when they get back from montana and hopefully a lovely chilledsightseeing train ride up the coast to san francisco for new years eve. any bay area nomads going to be around then?

and somehow also see my twin and get my eyebrows tattooed = hopefully not at the same time though as getting my eyebrows tattooed makes me sneeze.

and now i've come full circle!

*achoo*

i'm baaaack...

and ca't sleep and still achey. i really wish there was more information about what to expect as you come off tx as today i was sick as a dog - and have been sooo bloaty with the hugest tits ever, which is not good when i have to go out and buy some new pitch clothes for friday, and i'd put off buying anything for the last 7 months as was promised this treatment was also a weight loss regime! luckily i didn't lose too much of my ass but i wouldn't have missed my bingo winglettes or little weird csection belly bump if it had dissappeared.

so as i was bloated to fuck to day i decided to go to hennes instead of liberty and bought 3 pair of trousers for less than half of what i'd usually pay for 1 - so don't feel too bad that i'm back up to my largest sixe ever. just wish i felt more healthy in it and my skin wasn' so gross and grotty. the fake bake is wearing off and its like the meds are seeping out through my skin, so my bath this morning is going to involved alot of scrubbing with a lush buffy bar!

let's just hope that it doesn't scrub away the amount of tan that i did manage to get though...amaxingly i did really really well in the sun! i think the trick is to smother yourself really well before going out in it at all - the first day on the beach i started out with 15 everywhere and bump3d it up to 50 by afternoon, second day only needed the 15 but felt it was too much so went down to factor 8 on the third day...

of course because i was wearing the sexy 40s style bathing suit i have avoided the usual white tits headlights - but only because my belly isnt tanned either - and it's usually my brownest bit so i'm heaping on the boots mousse soltan which smells like oatmeal so i can wear it to work!

ugh work, its my first week back fulltime and it's probably too early - escpecially as i've been put on an important bit of new business...so all i am doing is working and home to bed and a bit of crochet, i just wish i could sleep as i've been awake now since 3am. o well more time for a nice long bubble bath this morning i guess...the fiance is staying at his place while i'm so busy and its kinda nice to just be all girlie overdrive.

because i need the pampering! yesterday really was a bad day and i felt sick sick sick all day. as usual i'm pushing myself too much but its so hard to know how far is too far until after the fact! i'm glad i went to italy but think ibixa in september will be my proper relaunch and i'm even planning on getting tattooed at inkadelic when i'm out there to celebrate the detox...just wish i could do it with a few bottles of cava too but the nurses have told me no no no, not til i get the SVR all clear, ugh!

actually - full props to the nurses, they are trying to grow the team at UCH and i'm really liking the new person that i've met, just wish i'd remembered to ask about what travel sickness meds i should.could take while travelling...i was puke-tastick on flights and in cars all trip, not fun in that heat. but what lovely heat! i'm thouroughly chilled to the bone now back in gloomy london. even did the electric blanket trick last night to try and warm my aching joints.
very sad in august!

lost weekend...

...and not in a good fun fucked up sweatie seaside sexy off my face fun tattooed riotous travelling way either.

instead it was in a sleepy achey couldn't get out of bed type weekend. its monday (actually no, it is tuesday and i've lost a day!!!) and i'm still feeling seasick even sitting at my desk...couldn't do anything but sit in bed and crochet as games, internet and tv just hurt my eyes and my mind too much. i am so glad that i've only got another week of this...but worried as i've got next week off and really would like to go somewhere/do something to celebrate!

so far the plan is still italy.

and to take some more crochet with me to work on.

because while i was stuck in bed at least i managed to make a weird little alien doppelganger of me - well of me if i was completely bald. so i guess more like a disco version of uncle fester with buddha ears! and more day of the deads and half a grim reaper...next project will be a little crocheted robot army i think! i'm really loving the creepy cutie crochet book the fiance bought me...and his first project was a nosferatu...aw!!!

don't go changing...

so many things seem to be changing and there is sooo much to think about.
i now have to remember to eat to take my pills...and am finding that hard - not that i usually have a problem eating - its just eating when i need to im finding difficult! especially as things are tasting sooo different...

another change is my girlie bits!
yes surprisingly even that is effected so they are infected...
i've been shaved clean for around 6 years (before that i sported a cross shape dyed red!)
but i nicked myself REALLY bad in 2 places the other week and it just wasn't healing up as quickly as usual - but then neither are the period spots i get on my chin! - so i've decided that its probably a good idea to go a bit au naturale for a bit...just nicely tidy and trimmed without the worry of damage, lol.

yea i could wax but the last waxer i went to and asked for a playboy was sooo not comfortable with getting into my nooks and crannies that she did a terrible job and i had to come home and shave the leftovers anyway! hmmm...maybe i should ask my stripper daughter if any of her colleagues know a good place?

i used to have an amazing woman that would get EVERYWHERE. loved her sooo much. she was syrian but had grown up in sweden and somehow made it to london (like we all do!) ironically she gave up waxing to start doing laser tattoo removal so she ended up inflicting pain on me in an entirely different way!

yup. did i mention i'm tattooed...like heavily.
probably how i'm infected. it would seem likely that it was from back in the old punk rock days when we all worked on each other with tattoo machines made from guitar strings and walkman motors. yea likely.

EXCEPT nothing ever showed up in any blood test ever over the last 20 years?
and i got tattooed by one of the guys off the london ink show at a convention in basle last spring then became really ill within months of that - could that have been my infection point? guess there really is no way to tell...

what is interesting is that my genotype is 2b so not very prevalant in this area.
i'm one of only a few at the hospital and the nurse says its seen more in southeast asia and common in sydney too - places i've never been! so maybe it is a pacific rim thing i picked up in california - or a global thing picked up at a tattoo convention where people from all over the world come together?

wouldn't it be great if our bodies had some sort of version control like a computer program or a server log? then i could go back and scan the log files for any anomaly...
actually as i w0rk in the industry more and more i'm finding it interesting to compare hepC with computer viruses...i'd love to meet a techie nerd that also has it to stay up online and discuss well into my insomniac hours.

last night was the 4th night in a row i didn't sleep.
i seem to either fall asleep early and wake up at 3am or stay awake til after 3 but have to be up for 8 to go to work...double trouble exhaustion!