Monday, March 16, 2009

so close but yet so far...


i finally talked to my ex-sister-in-law this evening. she'd texted me during the day but i thought it best to talk this evening once i got home and settled. until this morning she'd had no way to get in touch with me properly as the landline was changed ages ago when i moved from virgin to sky.

so now i really want/need to get to cornwall on wednesday...
know i don't do funerals - and the only one i've done since i've made the rule was for my best friend. feel as though i should go to my ex-husband's service though.

it is the ultimate closure for me and i'd like to be there for his sister that was always so lovely to me. i'd also like to be there in person to ask more questions as it turns out he died of liver disease...he had the perfect life for himself - drinking and surfin'
but it does still make me wonder...

did he also have hepC ???

but damn how far away is cornwall> tis no sense to how long it takes to get somewhere in this tiny little country!

and there's only one flight a day out of stanstead...
the only thing that i can figure is fly out early early wednesday morning and then get the last train back into london. so get a 6am flight and a 5pm train back - which doesn't get into paddington til almost midnight.

6 hours on a train, an hour or so flying plus check in and the time it takes to get to stanstead (its the opposite way makes no sense!!!)

this is the first time that i really wished that i still drove, had a car, and could just take off after my doc appointment tomoro night and stay somewhere on the way or something...ugh!

and i just found out the service is at 3:30pm so don't even think i can do it...

the alternative is to go back with his sister in the summer for a nice trip and to spread his ashes.

4 comments:

H. Heart said...

I hope you can go. Sounds like your sister-in-law is so sweet. Just think how your ex is in a good place now. May you feel some comfort at this time. Hugs xx

Fishwhiskers said...

I think u should go too. And I agree, it will be a final closure. He would probably want u there as well. Just because we split with somebody, doesn't mean they are forgotten ... and a piece of them always stays with us.

Interesting about the liver disease. Does his sister know any more about this?

Big hug xxx

My Other Blog said...

Air Southwest flies from Gatwick to Plymouth and Newquay - does that help? Can't you take the tube to Gatwick?
All the best.

hepkittie said...

thanks - its a tube and a train to gatwick from here - in the opposite direction as newquay, ugh! in the end it was too stressful for me to sort...x